Ahhhh....Vacation

I haven't posted here since February, mainly because my anxiety has been through the roof!  I've been a mental freak, stressing and pacing and getting little done with my mind going a million miles a minute.  Last week, myself and my daughter drove north to see my family.  I stayed for five days and came home; she is still there and will be there for most of this coming week. 

It is so quiet in the house.  With everything to do, I find myself so free, I'm not sure what to do first.  I have a zillion things to catch up on...but being the procrastinator I am, I'm only getting a few things done sporadically done as they strike me.  Having said that, I have made some progress on the house.  I went garage sale hopping yesterday and picked up a solid wood sofa table in great condition for only $40.  I also got a large area rug and a stack of children's books for only $10.  The rug was filthy; luckily I'd loaned my mom's carpet shampooer and was able to clean it.  That was actually quite a project, but I finished it.  Good buys!  I also picked up a file box identical to the one I have for $1 and a pair of jeans and boots for only $8.

Now that my little girl is walking well, it should be easier to go to garage sales with her...I won't have to dig out the stroller every stop.   I also have some painting I need to do.  Eh...how I hate painting.  I'm also trying to do the impossible, which is CATCH UP ON LAUNDRY.  I don't know that I have ever caught up on laundry since I became a mother.  I don't know how people with 6 kids ever got anything done. 

In a nutshell, since February I've been a disaster...but a happier disaster.  I've blocked the deadbeat's number and have hardly talked to him since March.  I'm also awaiting a decision at work that could elevate me to full-time status.  I'm technically part-time now, but work full-time hours many weeks.  I would love to have the benefits and get myself insured and my daughter off of state care!  Any sort of welfare is NOT a permanent option for me.  I see the way people look down their noses at anyone who receives assistance and I won't deal with it for the rest of my life.  I will defend those who need help, though.

I also printed off an application for the local university.  I've had ambitions to go to college for many years and have never followed through.  Actually, I was all but accepted to a university weeks before I got pregnant.  I abandoned that idea when my daughter's deadbeat promised family and dedication to me.  Should have stuck with it and at least earned some credit's while I was pregnant.   But for now, if I can even get some general courses in and start working towards that goal, I think I can make a success of myself yet.  Never too late to better yourself, right?

So many things to do!  So I am going to sign off now and just do one of them.  Just one.  My daughter should be back here by Saturday, so I'd better take advantage of my quiet time.